Dead Deer/Stag?

I feel really tired today and I don't know why, we didn't get up till 8.30am as BoyToy has been on his day off's for the past two days..

We didn't do much, we went to get my uniform as I left it at work, went down the Old Town for a fry up which I loooooove and a hot chocolate.

We were down some random shop and it went on for miles, found some cool bits and pieces.. here is BoyToy with what we think was a real dead deer/stag..

Got home and did a little bit more decking, now I am waiting for BoyToy to come back from his friends and I am watching Most Haunted Live! Yay!

Ps. There are three June 2009 brides :) Myself, Manda & Caity.... Yay!

Painting the decking..

I've spent today getting paint and trying to finish off our decking outside.. it half way there nearly done!

 

 

 

 

 I am going to finish it off today, yay!

Song on the loop

"Breakdown"

I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame I'm looking through
Seems to have no concern for now
So for now

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown

This engine screams out loud
Centipede gonna crawl westbound
So I don't even make a sound
Cause it's gonna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That I'll never get to meet
If these tracks don't bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I don't need to be
So I

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down

But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You don't know nothing
But you don't need to know
The wisdoms in the trees
Not the glass windows
You cant stop wishing
If you don't let go
But things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now

:(

One of those days//

I am fucking pissed off so much so I am just going to end up crying, after a crappy arugement with the BoyToy this morning,  the wedding shoes have been cancelled yet again and now my dishwasher is playing up, bubbles everywhere..



Moment of truth after doing a pre-wash..



Bubbles!!! Oh shit,  not good, mental note to self don't put bleach in the dishwasher.. I am now waiting for all the bubbles to go and try a Quick wash...

Wish I had stayed in bed...

Change of plans II

After my pervious two posts, regarding children, as my degree course is only 3 years long, we have decided as a couple to try for our first child in the next two/three years then I'll take a year out and then find a job.

I am pretty happy with desicion as BoyToy doesn't want to be an old dad and he wil be only 33/34 years old when we have our first, we have the house, he is (hopefully) getting a job promoted to an extra 5 grand a year so we will be comfortable so why should we wait too long.

Anyway wedding planning is going well, we paid our despoit on the reception hall and now just awaiting the cater price.. I'm just planning how I would ike everything laid out at the reception hall.

And Uni starts in less than 4 weeks, I am sooo excited, can not wait to learn all these new programming languages, scripts and database management skills.

I've been working all bank hol weekend and had to get up at 6am this morning after working a late the night before till 11pm, I am so tired///

Explaining

Not alot is going on this evening, I babysat my brother all day, we tried to go swimming but it wouldn't let children in before 1.30pm and it was only 11am, we weren't going to wait so we can going to try again on Thursday.I managed to get hold of the whiskers cheap kitten food from the small mountain at ESK, and I picked up 5 boxes as my babies don't like the can ones.. bless..

Oh and here are some photos that make me smile loads!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just to explain...

It’s not that I’m saying I don’t want children, it’s just my personal view that I have worked so hard for this degree to stop during the 4 year period and have a baby as it would not be fair on me, my husband or our future child(ren) as I wouldn’t be able to give all my attention.

 

I’m not saying get pregnant then a week after giving birth go back to work, I would go back to work after a year then my partner would look after the child(ren), I wouldn’t want a stranger with my child(ren).

 

I am more broody then anyone else but I know I couldn't have a child right now, we haven't the money, I'm starting uni, we want to save at least 5 grand before a child and my partner is changing his job.
Hope I’ve explained myself and you don’t think I am an arse :( didn't mean to come across like that.

Children Vs Career

After the question was raised on lavish.nu about being a Stay At Home Mum for the sake of a career, I was thinking where I stand on this issues.

Personally, I've worked sooo hard to get into one of the top uni's in England to study Computer Science, that I will never be a SAHM it is not who I am.

I believe children are important and I do want to have two children maybe when I'm 28 or 30.  I feel I have no rush and everyone keeps asking me when are me and BoyToy are having them and even asking are we getting married because we have one on the way (uh no!).

I have to complete my degree so 4 years that will make me 27 then I want find a good job which has progess for me to become an IT manager also allow me to study for my Masters (the degree after the one I complete) and hopefully my doctorate (part-time of course).

BoyToy is going to be 30 by the time we are married so he will be late 30s before we have children, I don't feel bad about him being older than most people having children as he understands how important my degree is to me.  But he is aduty manager at my shop so he earns a good wage and would go part-time when we have children so he can be a stay at home dad as he dislikes his job and would prefer it, personally that is fine with me, he can stay at home and I can bring home the bacon!

Also after I have children I would not mind studying for my teaching degree which would mean I could complete a life time goal of teaching ICT to secondary school children but life is full of things I would love to do :)

Don't get me wrong, I think people who stay at home to look after thier children are amazing, my best mate does it and loves it so much but saying that she is also going back to school to study Beauty and Health as my god daughter is now nearly 2.

I think if you can afford to be a SAHM then you should do it but I also wouldn't feel guilty if you work and have children after all women can multi-task..

I'm tiiiiiiiiirrrrreeeeddd

I'm soo knacked, my feet cain!  I just worked a 9 hour shift so it was really hard work today, probably because I haven't been at work for two weeks.... urgh.

Am at muthers right now as I have to wait till 11pm until BoyToy finished work and then another 9 hour shift tomorrow...

 I am now watching x-factor and want to sleeeeep.

About me

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance (sometimes)
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old
[ x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ xx] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ x] I've been to Europe.(I live there)
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drunk a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[ x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ x ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ x ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex, even a worshipful one.
[x ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ x] I am a cuddler.
[ x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x ] I've consumed alcohol.
[x ] I regularly drink.
[x ] I've passed out from drinking.
[x ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ x] I take anti-depressants. (I was)
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ x] I've hurt myself on purpose
[] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[x ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x ] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs. (Fleas and Ticks, and the occasional mosquito, are the exception)
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue, dark red.
[] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[ x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ x] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All of those are answered honestly

=) Entertaining while waiting for the BoyToy to get out the bath so we can so look at this reception hall..

Caught in the Act

So I have been taking loads of pictures today with my digi cam, loads of Arthur because she is a poser, I would take pictures of Kitty but she doesn't stay still for a second.

Anyway after posing loads of pictures of Arthur posing and looking very cute on deviantART, I caught her in the act of drinking my water!!!



Naughty kitten, off to take more piccies

Camera will be here soon!!

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Yay!! Not long should be in the next hour or two!!

Not alot happened this morning had to get up at 6.30am to wait for our new tumble dryer to be delivered at 7am, it came at 9.30am go figure, two and half hours late...

Am just awaiting on the post, I ordered my sisters birthday presents, season 5 of Buffy, BoyToy's PSP, my headphones and my camera?!?!?!

My baby girls

I love my baby girls so much, I am so happy we got kittens!  I'm hoping to get a little ginger boy kitten and call him Chester when the girls are a little older.

Post Secret

I was reading my favourite Sunday blog and came across this secret, this has got to be one of my biggest worries about uni, that no one will want to be my friend :(



Not alot is going on this morning, I'm off to my mothers for lunch as I haven't seen her in 2 weeks and other than that I want to upgrade my WordPress, it's werid not being at work on a Sunday, very odd, enjoying the holiday though :P

Damita has a spanking new digi camera

Big hugs and kisses to my future husband, who brought me a camera because I need one for uni and because I LOVE taking pictures.

I used to use my mums digi cam but now I've moved out (it's been 8 months!!)  I can't, so todaymy BoyToy brought me this:



I am soooo excited and sooo grateful that he brought me on as a present on the wimp of it because he loves me...

Wedding Save the Date Cards and other invites

Really need to send out our Save the Date cards and the wedding invites.

I found some nice coloured flowers today to go with my blue butterflies.

 

 

 

 

Books, meaning of blogging and bunnies!

So I'm coming down with something, I am feeling all achey, sore and tired (even though I was alseep for 9/10 hours last night), I need to take my vitamins, I've had some soup and a bath now so feeling a little better.

I hate being ill.  It is boring but I did manage to go into town today with BoyToy to look at a tattoo shop and to wander, I brought three new books:

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer


Which is about a seventeen-year-old Isabella "Bella" Swan who moves from Phoenix, Arizona, to Forks, Washington, and finds her life in danger when she falls in love with a vampire, Edward Cullen.

I've read on the internet that it is corny and not worth the read but so many people have gone on about it that I thought what the heck I'll give it ago.

 The Forever Summer by Suzanne Macpherson

The Awful Truth about Emily Ruth

Lucas Griffin has come to Port Gamble for one purpose: to get the Griffin family summer home out of the clutches of his evil ex-wife, Emily Ruth Griffin.

But before he can blink twice, she drops dead in the local grocery market. Now he's stuck with her ghost, and her little dog, too.

Not-So-Dearly Departed Lila Abbott has had her fill of rich summer people who crowd Port Gamble every year. Townie girls and summer boys just don't mix, and she's learned that the hard way.

But Lucas Griffin has a ghost problem that only Lila can solve, and she finds herself knee-deep in Cheez Whiz while Lucas and the deceased Emily Ruth duke it out.

Working together to clear his name and get rid of their pesky poltergeist, Lucas and Lila find themselves falling in love. Maybe this will finally be the forever summer for Lila Abbott.

I picked this up just because it looked like a ghost love story, I'm hoping that it will be funny and not too dark.

Addition by Toni Jordan

Addition is novel about being in love with numbers. The main character is Grace Vandenburg - damaged and screwy, but not a victim: she's quick-witted, flirtatious and headstrong. She's not the least bit sentimental but she may be about to lose count of the number of ways she can fall in love. Debut novel from an Australian author.

 I brought this because I was at the countor feeling very hungry and it was on offer £2.99 if you spent £10 in the store,  and the lady said it was about OCD and it was a very interesting summer read, so I thought maybe it might be good.

I love reading new books so I am quite excited about sitting down and reading these.

While in the bath, I was thinking why do I read other people's blogs and why on earth would they want to read mine, my conclusion is that I read other people's blogs to learn more about thier country, thier culture, how they live thier lives differenlty to me oh and also I am sooo nosey, ha ha!

So I am going to try my hardest to make my blog more interesting and more about England, my degree coure and other aspects.

I have been so interested by the Bunny Cam which is streaming live on  plinsessa.net, it is sooo interesting, I am waiting for the baby bunnies!!

Ha ha, isn't it kawaii =P

August Update on the Goals

• Complete college with the grade of AAA

• Move into our new house (Been in for a month!)

• Buy two cats (Arthur and Kitty)
  

• Buy a wii (Complete! But then exchanged for an Xbox Live)

• Find a new job or change my hours at current job (Changed the shop job to weekends and am temping in admin until uni starts)
  

• Pay of remain Credit Card (Still doing it only £300 left!)

• Complete my Buffy DVD collection (Own 1-4 already - brought season 4)

• Complete my Frasier DVD collection (Brought season 2)

• Buy at least 10 new shades of Barry M (I own 30 already) (I have 3 new ones!)

• Find and buy a laptop

• Make a great start at uni

• Update all fansites

New goals added

• Learn more about Wordpress and updateDigital-Damita.net with all it's old content plus link LJ and my domain together

• Screen capture all the movies/tv shows that my fansites are related too

I got in!

This has just been shown on my uni application online

The current status of your Application is:
Congratulations! Your place at University of Sussex (S90) to study Computer Science (G400) has been confirmed.

I am sooo excited!! I got three A's at A Level in Computer Science now I got into a really good uni!!!

I start in October!!!