Dead Deer/Stag?

I feel really tired today and I don't know why, we didn't get up till 8.30am as BoyToy has been on his day off's for the past two days..

We didn't do much, we went to get my uniform as I left it at work, went down the Old Town for a fry up which I loooooove and a hot chocolate.

We were down some random shop and it went on for miles, found some cool bits and pieces.. here is BoyToy with what we think was a real dead deer/stag..

Got home and did a little bit more decking, now I am waiting for BoyToy to come back from his friends and I am watching Most Haunted Live! Yay!

Ps. There are three June 2009 brides :) Myself, Manda & Caity.... Yay!

Painting the decking..

I've spent today getting paint and trying to finish off our decking outside.. it half way there nearly done!

 

 

 

 

 I am going to finish it off today, yay!

Song on the loop

"Breakdown"

I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame I'm looking through
Seems to have no concern for now
So for now

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown

This engine screams out loud
Centipede gonna crawl westbound
So I don't even make a sound
Cause it's gonna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That I'll never get to meet
If these tracks don't bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I don't need to be
So I

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down

But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You don't know nothing
But you don't need to know
The wisdoms in the trees
Not the glass windows
You cant stop wishing
If you don't let go
But things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now

:(

One of those days//

I am fucking pissed off so much so I am just going to end up crying, after a crappy arugement with the BoyToy this morning,  the wedding shoes have been cancelled yet again and now my dishwasher is playing up, bubbles everywhere..



Moment of truth after doing a pre-wash..



Bubbles!!! Oh shit,  not good, mental note to self don't put bleach in the dishwasher.. I am now waiting for all the bubbles to go and try a Quick wash...

Wish I had stayed in bed...

Change of plans II

After my pervious two posts, regarding children, as my degree course is only 3 years long, we have decided as a couple to try for our first child in the next two/three years then I'll take a year out and then find a job.

I am pretty happy with desicion as BoyToy doesn't want to be an old dad and he wil be only 33/34 years old when we have our first, we have the house, he is (hopefully) getting a job promoted to an extra 5 grand a year so we will be comfortable so why should we wait too long.

Anyway wedding planning is going well, we paid our despoit on the reception hall and now just awaiting the cater price.. I'm just planning how I would ike everything laid out at the reception hall.

And Uni starts in less than 4 weeks, I am sooo excited, can not wait to learn all these new programming languages, scripts and database management skills.

I've been working all bank hol weekend and had to get up at 6am this morning after working a late the night before till 11pm, I am so tired///

Explaining

Not alot is going on this evening, I babysat my brother all day, we tried to go swimming but it wouldn't let children in before 1.30pm and it was only 11am, we weren't going to wait so we can going to try again on Thursday.I managed to get hold of the whiskers cheap kitten food from the small mountain at ESK, and I picked up 5 boxes as my babies don't like the can ones.. bless..

Oh and here are some photos that make me smile loads!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just to explain...

It’s not that I’m saying I don’t want children, it’s just my personal view that I have worked so hard for this degree to stop during the 4 year period and have a baby as it would not be fair on me, my husband or our future child(ren) as I wouldn’t be able to give all my attention.

 

I’m not saying get pregnant then a week after giving birth go back to work, I would go back to work after a year then my partner would look after the child(ren), I wouldn’t want a stranger with my child(ren).

 

I am more broody then anyone else but I know I couldn't have a child right now, we haven't the money, I'm starting uni, we want to save at least 5 grand before a child and my partner is changing his job.
Hope I’ve explained myself and you don’t think I am an arse :( didn't mean to come across like that.

Children Vs Career

After the question was raised on lavish.nu about being a Stay At Home Mum for the sake of a career, I was thinking where I stand on this issues.

Personally, I've worked sooo hard to get into one of the top uni's in England to study Computer Science, that I will never be a SAHM it is not who I am.

I believe children are important and I do want to have two children maybe when I'm 28 or 30.  I feel I have no rush and everyone keeps asking me when are me and BoyToy are having them and even asking are we getting married because we have one on the way (uh no!).

I have to complete my degree so 4 years that will make me 27 then I want find a good job which has progess for me to become an IT manager also allow me to study for my Masters (the degree after the one I complete) and hopefully my doctorate (part-time of course).

BoyToy is going to be 30 by the time we are married so he will be late 30s before we have children, I don't feel bad about him being older than most people having children as he understands how important my degree is to me.  But he is aduty manager at my shop so he earns a good wage and would go part-time when we have children so he can be a stay at home dad as he dislikes his job and would prefer it, personally that is fine with me, he can stay at home and I can bring home the bacon!

Also after I have children I would not mind studying for my teaching degree which would mean I could complete a life time goal of teaching ICT to secondary school children but life is full of things I would love to do :)

Don't get me wrong, I think people who stay at home to look after thier children are amazing, my best mate does it and loves it so much but saying that she is also going back to school to study Beauty and Health as my god daughter is now nearly 2.

I think if you can afford to be a SAHM then you should do it but I also wouldn't feel guilty if you work and have children after all women can multi-task..