Things can only get better

Aw I just lost all my last post which is really annoying!!

Things are looking better, me and boytoy have decided to shop at a cheaper supermarket, makes our monthly food shop £60 instead of £150 which is amazing!

Plus I had a job interview at a bridal shop today for Saturday work, I really hope I get it!! It would be so much fun but I'm not gonna get my hopes up and I will find out Monday evening.

Went out last night to see my best mate bf's band and it was really good, ran into my brother down there and went home at 2am as my feet were hurting, that will teach me for wearing such high boots!!

I have this new software space which I got from the government and its pretty cool. All I have is a microphone and then it types it onto the screen when I speak, it's great!

Edit! Also I have managed to only go over my budget by £28! Get in there!

One more day in paradise

I don't even know why I am blogging about this as it is such a downer topic to post about.

We got boytoys payslip and it is down by £50, I know this might not sound alot but it is when you only have £70 spare a month after bills and train fare, I don't know how we are even coping, how are we suppose to buy food for a month with £20?

I know I pay for most of the food but that isn't working out very well at the mo, I miss having a job, I miss having more than £10 to myself a month, I just so beyond fed up.

I wanted to go and see my best mate tomorrow but it costs £6.50 on the train to get there and I just don't have any money, I tried to save some so I could go and see her but I had to spend it on cat food and toothpaste and now I have like 20p to my name, I can't spend the money in my bank as that is for food and my loan repayment.

I can't do anything these days, it costs to go anywhere, I don't drive, I am just in the house trying not to eat too much so that there is food for boytoys pack lunch (he doesn't know I'm doing this), not turn the lights on, not use the phone, I just revise and tidy.

It's not healthy but at the moment I am living of two slides of bread and jam and maybe some chips in the evening.

I've been putting on a brave face but for the last half hour after having to tell my best mate that I couldn't come and see her, I just cried, I'm trying to do a food shop I don't even know why I bother, I should just save the money.... but then boytoy would be hungry..

And I just feel so guilty that I can't do anything with my friends, or ever go out, I just feel such like a failure.

I'm 23 for christ sake I should be able to do this, look after myself, I shouldn't be crying.

First week of the holiday

First offical week of the hoilday, yesterday I revised for about 4 hours - computer systems, which is going alright, I've still gotta cover a few more points relating to parallel and serial buses and the kernel of the operating system but other than that I think it will go alright in the exam.

I am waiting for my friend from uni to let me have the revision notes he has written up so that should be cool, hopefully today maybe?

The internet keep dropping out on my main computer which is driving me crazy as I get to a place where I need information or I need to update my blog like I am doing now and then it all dies :(  I'm trying to figure out why it keeps dieing on me, it didn't have a problem until this week.

I have been doing my wedding seating planner this week and here it is so far :)





And these bows can this morning for the table planner, I also have midnight blue paint to paint the edges of the butterflies wings! Should look pretty.  Oh and the royal blue is the cover of my sashes for my chairs.



I haven't done much else other than re-organise my kitchen and pulled the carpet of my stairs, we want to sand it so they are just wooden floor boards.





Okay back to revision I go... sniff :(

New work-out

Okay so I have now finished uni for this term and I have a total of 4 weeks and 6 days off :) so nearly 5 weeks, which is great!!

I am trying to tone and lose a bit of weight before the wedding, I found this great pilates dvd, I do 20 minutes up to 3 times a week but I am doing 4/5, it is really good.

I'm also back on my lemon water which I am hoping will help me lose the extra wind and water in my stomach :)  Plus me and the hubby are on a weight lose tone up plan so loads of veg and fruit!

Plus I'm sorting out my hair and body, hair mask and oil up my body so it makes it smooth and soft and I need to use my face mask and quit smoking!!!

So it is only two months and a couple of weeks till the wedding and it is all go go go!

Plus need to revise for the exams in the summer, busy 5 weeks eh?

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

So I have managed to sit down and update this blog, I did write a whole rant about being poor, eating jam sandwiches every day and not being abe to get into uni due to lack of funds but I thought that would just be a bit sole distroying to have to read it again.

Anywho, I have a piccie of the bridesmaid dress so I thought I would share.



Don't they look pretty!  Best Mate and my other close girly friend :) Known them both for 10 years now!  They are going to be taken up and altered in some ways but I do like them more now.

Other than having no money, I am one week away from term finishing which is really really good apart from the fact I have 4 assignments due in! But I am looking forward to the break, I am off to Scotland to see my dad and sisters for a week also get a load of wedding planning done.

Final note, why does Natasha Bedingfield talk about loving being single one minute then she sings about wanting your babies, make up your mind woman!

Oh my god!

Okay so it hasn't been the best of weeks with the trains being cancelled on Thursday so couldn't get to uni and on Friday I got an ear infection where I couldn't hear out of my left ear... not so good!

But I did have a good meeting with the dyslexia person on Tuesday, am getting loads of freebies! Yay! my program design group is nearly finished all it's work (gotta do a few bits tomorrow!), and my HCI group is going really good as we have only one bit left to do and then just write a report!

Am failing computing machines but I have given up on that, I will on the exam, if I fail then it isn't the worse as I will still pass this year.

Programming! The subject I have worked so hard in! I am really getting into the programming at the moment, we have a love-hate reletionship me and Java.

Look what I have made!! A Hitori Puzzle!



I am so pleased with it!!  It will show you the problems, I am so close to finishing just gotta get it to go around the loop again but I have an idea..

[edit = 2 minutes later] Fixed it! It works, now I just wanna add the solve method and I am done!!! Hurrah! I might had a few more bits as I have 4 days till I hand in! [/edit]

Other than all this programming drama! I managed to get the bridesmaid dresses finished with the help of my two best friends, we have nearly finished all the bits and pieces :) I am really excited!!!!!

Feb Spend

Thanks to everyone for filling in my questionnaire, my group looked super on Monday in our presentation :)

Not very good for this months spend... I need to cut smoking seriously £30! WTF! Oh and keep an eye on our food shop!



March is going alright so far, gotta be so careful... hmmm! Oh and make about £200 to replace over spending on ebay me thinks...